noise in my head

haven't been on here in over a year. so much has changed since then.

left georgia for a little while for, lived in california for a year, fell in love with it, and then had to go back to georgia. ewwe. so many things i miss.

loved my kappa delta sisters
loved meeting aurora and brandon and kelsey
loved working with angels on stage
loved babysitting for the diabetic kids i met
loved their families
loved being able to do every dyf diabetes camp program
loved the sunshine and the palm trees and the ocean and the hippies
loved spending so much time w/ amber
loved performing in the vagina monologues
loved blowing glass and painting
loved escaping relationship messes i made at home
loved the feeling of as fresh start
loved the low stress of classes at sjsu

le sigh.

i only write when i'm sad anymore. flipped through my neglected journal last night and was really shocked at all the sadness because, generally speaking, i'm a really happy person. when i'm happy though i think i am in the moment, being happy. not concentrating so much on writing it down or wanting to remember it later-- just embracing the feelings and letting life happen. when i'm bummed out, missing people, sick of men, sick of diabetes-- that's when i write. i want to get it out of my system. let the feelings leave me and stick to the page. bam take that journal! then i just seemed like a depressed mess when reading the things i write without knowing all the day-to-day blessings, joys, thankfulness, and celebration.

goal: write down more of the happy things.
[starting now.]

love my roommates
love that there are no tornado warnings today! haha
love that i am working in the hospital this semester
love my classes
love that i get to see my bff more often
love that i get to see my mom more often
loved the show i was in last week
love the show i am rehearsing for now
loved my trip to amsterdam and belgium two weeks ago
love that we are planning our cruise for spring break

study time! half an hour to read two chapters before my next class. consider it done. [or at least skimmed].

lovelovelove
katie