a london low

yesterday was not good.

it's been a not-so-hot week in london [although i feel bad complaining--i'm in europe after all!]. and i have been feeling a bit in the dumps lately. it's a combination of really missing everyone at home [i wish i could see heda, brock, bekah, channing, tim, jim, & shealy. like now. summer is for catching up with highschool friends and that seems to be a little difficult to do this summer... :( boo.] plus camp bearskin started sunday. and i am not in the beautiful mountains sleeping under the crystal clear sierra night sky with my bmc family. i want to be with them also. and then there’s other stupid circumstances.

nothing like purging your mind on the worldwideweb to make you feel better, right?
i'm working for tovah feld shuh at the shaw theatre [i spaced out her last name incase she googles herself!].

click on a link to learn more! haha

ACTRESS TOVAH:
http://www.tovahfeldshuh.com/home.htmlhttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tovah_Feldshuhhttp://www.imdb.com/name/nm0271165/ SHAW THEATRE:http://www.theshawtheatre.com/ i swear she is in some way responsible for the reputation of the the word diva and i don't think i've ever done so much ass-kissing in my whole life as i hve the last few weeks. she scarcely praises [but when she does she really means it...so i guess that's nice...ish...] and she is lightning-fast to scold or condescendingly correct. tovah has a total disregard for anyone's feelings or well-being besides herself. i mean this and am not just saying it because i fell prey to her merciless, narcissistic absorption, although she did explode at me yesterday and literally yelled in my face for five minutes.

i bit the inside of my cheeks so hard that the left side bled and is all fleshy and gross today but i refused to break down in front of her. of course i cried in the bathroom about it right afterwards but i was not going to let her know she got to me! haha. oh the world of egotistical actors.

it's a lengthy story, i'm not going to try to explain right now. i'm in an internet cafe and with my vulnerable emotional state i want to avoid activities that could possibly cause public mental break downs. JOKE. well sort of. ask me if you want to hear the story later- i'm sure i will be in the mood to vent soon. or perform voodoo magic. haha.



rehearsal didn't go that well today either. kathryn and i were dropping lines like butterfingered jugglers and george didn’t seem too impressed. he always gives positive feedback, which i was really looking forward to today [considering…] but he didn’t have much to say.

i promise things really aren’t terrible though. i just miss my family and friends and had a bad experience with a famous person who acts like a famous person. the combination just takes toll on a person’s disposition.

enough about all that. sheesh. just call me debbie downer…

i must now write at least two positive things.

#1 we had a guided tour through the globe theatre today and an acting workshop in the globe rehearsal space with a cute actor named trevor. that was fun. i was bitingly sarcastic the whole time [semi-bitter mood + high bloodsugar] but it kept him laughing.

#2 i am wearing a very stylish london-esque outfit right now

AND KEATON JUST CALLED! that makes #3.

ooh! and whitney and i met up the other night and had the best time! oh my gosh being with her again was a blast. and i get to see her again next monday. that counts as #4 and #5 if not # 6 too.

see? so many positive things going on. can’t let an old broadway broad get me down. and i bet she didn’t get a package from her mom today [#7].

oh internet, thanks for listening. i feel a bit better.

love, katie.